Tuesday, June 28, 2011 6/28/2011 10:38:00 PM
I feel like dying.
~ you're everything I need 6/28/2011 06:06:00 PM
I wont say that im the best gf in the world. But i dont think that im the worst also. I can be very affectionate everytime i fall in love. I can be willing to do little things to show that i appreciate someone very much. Im willing to spend time and money if necessary. Im foolish til the point that i got treated like a dog in the past.
I know whats the meaning of "doing things without expecting anything in return". But i believe that even the nicest person on earth also have a limit right? The person who keeps giving without receiving anything or even get acknowledged by their effort will also be tired. Tired of being so nice. Tired of being treated so unimportantly.
~ you're everything I need Friday, June 24, 2011 6/24/2011 05:16:00 PM
I thought I would regret my decision. But no, I feel more relieved. Like I dont need to put on a smile so people will not think that im emoing. I dont have to act high so that people notice my presence. Its the time when i dont feel like myself that i feel alone with a big group of people. But the feeling of being alone but not feeling alone is so much better.
All the while, most of my so called friends think that im very independent, think that im someone who can handle everything. Can i still call these people my friends when I very clearly know that they never understood what kind of person I am? And if im feeling quiet that day they all say i emo. I dont deserve some quiet time on my own? And when im happy and is a bit more chatty nobody ever listens to what i say. Sentences that i say out are ignored.
You people make me feel like mulan. Forcing me to be somebody im not. Maybe thats why Reflection is my favourite song.
~ you're everything I need Thursday, June 23, 2011 6/23/2011 11:21:00 PM
tuesday went bedok to sing song with bf. the price wasnt so bad and the service was good. their tv thing had to key in your hp number so it will rmb the songs you requested for then next time you go, you just go to favourite songs and all the songs you sing before will be there for easy clicking.
morning timing was 11 till 6 pm, they will give 3 hours minimum then if no customers want the room or what they will let you sing until 6pm. if still no customer, you really can sing until the place close at 2am for weekdays, 3am for weekends. but the bad thing is 1 drink per person only, and the drinks are all can drinks. at least they allow us to bring our own food and drinks, not like kbox tibits are $7++. we even saw people buy mac and bring in the room. so if a big group of friends want sing the whole day, the price and the system is better than others.
and lucky i force bf to go shopping with me at bugis. at first he was deciding whether to go out shopping to get his berms then i just help him decide. he got 2 berms for $25, i got a simple maxi dress for $15, a black flats for $19.90 and bf buy charles & keith demin heels for me. i think limited edition one leh. feels like im wearing some branded jeans for shoes. but i still have to pay for his ticket to USS ):
~ you're everything I need Wednesday, June 22, 2011 6/22/2011 12:07:00 PM
a little update on my life,
last sat went to the jurong bird park on a double date with me, bf, chuqiao and bf. im lazy to post any photos here and im still considering whether to upload in on fb at all. maybe just post some human faces beccause the birds were all hiding that day.
at night went to this bar/pub place at raffles. its called 1altitude and its on the 62nd level so the sight was pretty nice. went with bf and his friends and found out that benjamin was afraid of heights! a big guy can have his soft spot too. it was nice mingling with other gfs there. sharon is now a little less judgmental.
next day, sunday morning. went to zoo with ann and chuqiao. since they say they will be late so i purposely took my own sweet time and was even later. i think the zoo is undergoing some renovation so i didnt get to see the polar bears. the whole day was a bad day. i know people said that friends shouldnt go out in threes. because somebody will be left out. i just assumed it wouldnt happen to us because we knew each other for so long. but when it happened, i didnt know what to do. keep following them and try to act like im close to them? if i do all the acting then im just another fake person. so i chose to walk alone. if they forget me then too bad for me i guess. afterall, people always think im this strong girl that will be fine on her own. so they think its ok and just let me be independent.
someday, i hope to find a friend that really understand me.
~ you're everything I need Friday, June 17, 2011 6/17/2011 12:27:00 AM
Everybody should understand when someone tells them not to judge a book by its cover. Still, it takes bits and pieces of experience with different people before you understand what it really means.
Friends over 10 years may still be a bitch and betray each other. Strangers that look mean doesn't mean that they are a bully. Why is it so difficult for friends to truely know each other inside out? Why are there still friends that take each other for granted? Are those friends that use words to put me down still friends? How do I know whether they did it on purpose or it was a slip of tongue. I think it would be better if you have close friends, but not so close until they have the chance to backstab or say words to upset you. I wonder if husband and wife or couples bitch about each other.
"Don't judge people!" so many of us say it. But most of the time, the people who say this are also judging people as well. I say so much, I also find it difficult not to judge someone based on first impressions.
~ you're everything I need Saturday, June 11, 2011 6/11/2011 12:39:00 AM
I spend the week at phuket. I wont say its a waste of money, but its not the best place also. but Im glad this trip help us to rethink this relationship. Maybe its better this way, better to end it than to keep fighting over our problems.
~ you're everything I need 
Doodle