Friday, April 22, 2011 4/22/2011 06:57:00 PM
i realise that this wasnt the kind of relationship that i was expecting. it made me turn into a girl that gets upset easily, cry easily, it made me question myself and made me think that im not good enough for you.
perhaps it was you who took me for granted or maybe i was too sensitive and always cooking up a fuss. what went wrong, i really have no idea.
but now, i dont wanna try anymore. i dont want to be the one that is running after you. since young, im the one that is always pestering the other party. honestly speaking, which girl doesnt want their guy to pay attention to them? which girl would be ok and calm when their guy is looking at someone else, lusting after someone else? so please dont ever think that the problem is you looking at someone else. you should be able to understand what impact that would have one me. you should know that by doing certain things, you make question my ability and position in your life. remember your friend dancing with another girl while the gf is at home? so what if other people say that touching is a more serious 'crime'? its the same concept, you love her, you wont even see others in your eyes.
whats the point of being together if you never once share your true feelings with me? why is it that you either keep things to yourself or you prefer talking to your friends instead? 1 year already, and i still cant walk into your life. you seem to be happier without me instead, while i cry when i know you talk to your friends instead of me.
so i rather be alone everyday than texting you and seeing your cold replies. i rather be single than be in a 'relationship'. unless i get back my confidence, unless you prove yourself by changing, its not a relationship to me. im not chasing after you anymore. im the girl, and i like to be chased.
~ you're everything I need 
Doodle