i want big big curls. maybe will get it done early december? before the prices shoot up for xmas.

i have been wanted a camera since forever. to capture my life in photographs. i will get this once i get my october pay. any colour suggestions?

i need more shoes! no more heels though. i want covered shoes that look professional and casual.

chanel bag please! ok, no need branded. just a new bag for cny and big enough for school also.

more clothes for work and dating. i keep wearing the same old stuff. i want to bring fashion and colour into the office. adults keep wearing those dull clothes.

more make up. now go work everyday must put. actually i just need some more liquid foundation. i want to change my lip gloss colour also. (hint to jackie tan.) (ps. the hint is for everything. thanks)

oh, and today i suddenly decided to read back a bit of my older posts. and i was reminded, by myself, how my bf came along at the right time and gave me the hope to go into another relationship. you were the one who brought back my confidence and trust for love. (:

~ you're everything I need
if only the world has similar thinking like mine. or just think bimbo-ly. the world would be a better place. couples won't break up so easily. friends will stick to each other and be loyal-er. if only couples can just take 10 deep breaths, think about why they are even quarreling and confirm that they really want to break up or divorce, before they even say the word. its either quarrel and quarrel and break up, or quarrel and quarrel and think for 10 seconds and laugh about how silly they have been and continue being in love.

and this is for my boss :

Eh boss, you cannot like that one you know? we still so young then you always shoot us in public. like in front of everyone. then we of course cannot talk back to you also. or we try to explain also difficult leh. you want us to interact, we are trying ah. but how to become one of your if some of them don't want to include us in? then if we too over social then confirm some people will think we want bootlick or what right? then we diam diam you say we antisocial. then ni yao wo men do what? i want talk to some of them but they also won't understand my cold jokes what. they all the age gap so big. and we also don't do adult talk like, you got how many siblings ah? what they doing now? your parents do what? they earn how much? how many auntie uncle you have? cousin leh? got rich relatives? seriously??? we like to talk about other things you know? like, who is happening with who? who last time did what stupid things? or some funny stories. you say you 30 year old already mingle with your boss. of course la. maybe you alone so you die die have to make friends? or maybe that place more friendly? and you at age 30 is doing adult talk with your boss also what. wapiang!

~ you're everything I need
COME COME! Chio Bu Here.

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just help this pretty girl and like this profile. also get your friends to like it also. (: THANKS!

~ you're everything I need
wo dao de shuan shen me? what am i? seriously, i myself also don't know. but i do know that only you can treat yourself right. everyone else will just let you down one way or another. afterall, they are still human. and all human make mistakes.

at work i get treated like shit. fine, im the intern. intern = do odd jobs and no need thank them. with friends i like invisible. not there also nobody notice. with bf the things that i do out of love becomes something i do because i am supposed to.

~ you're everything I need
shit. im like back to the state where i keep bf here and bf there. im glad i sort of force myself to write the letter in one page. because we have been together for some time, how can one piece of paper summarize all the tears and all the laughter. okk.. maybe my bf never cry, but i did ok. and to be honest, the 8 points are only to pei he our 8 months only. and a few of them are also a little joke to make you laugh. and given my usual essay writing style, i don't think that one page is enough. i wonder if i should really my feelings down somewhere. like a secret diary that nobody knows about. and when i die or at my wedding or what then i can read out my feelings. but the problem is, you give me so many different feelings. i don't even know how to pen it down.

am i considered as not ambitious if i just want to be a housewife? because i don't see the point in working so hard at the office and earn big bucks like all the people at raffles place. all wear until so nice with iphone 4 and branded bags and clothes. in the end? all also rush into the train with that anxiousness to get a seat. and even though the train has space to stand, they wait for the next train and stand right in front of the door so when the next train comes, they get to sit down. if i have to be like them to be considered as 'successful', i rather be a housewife and teach my kids the right values. and hope that they don't grow up to be like the rest who is brainy yet have no character.

~ you're everything I need
im glad my bf is like a mastermind. (:

~ you're everything I need
whats the thing with ij and methodist girls???? i wonder if there is anything stories/ physical catfights between them that started the rivalry for the next generations of girls. or maybe i can start a rumour like....
there were 2 best friends, A and B who were in the same primary school. but after psle, their parents chose their schools for them. so A went to methodist school and B went to CHIJ. they wanted to go to the same school but you know, olden days parents always make decision for their kids. so they have no choice either. so A and B tried to keep in contact, but it was tough. and slowly they drifted apart and had their own friends in school. then one day A and B were out with their own friends and both groups bumped into each other at a shopping mall. and when B saw A, B's friends already commented about methodist school before B could do anything.. then the whole rivalry continued from there. (im cutting the story short because im getting lazy)

have you ever felt that you knew that person for so long until you are like married old couples? or is it just me when i keep getting the feeling like we have been together for so long and we know each other so well. like we have been staying together for so long. or do i just want a family so badly until im thinking this way.

~ you're everything I need
first time dinner eat at halal place. (:







and fb is so screwed up. but why jackie can upload mine cannot???? seriously sia. fb cannot, blogger also like retarded to a certain extent. im tired and i wanna sleep....

im into pick up lines lately. so guys and girls who wanna hit on people in pub or clubs can get advice from me!!!!

your long awaited trailer!!!! actually is just taking those photos and camwhore only.























~ you're everything I need
i believe that im worth everything that i am asking for. i can't even remember the last time i went to the cinema, the last time i swam, the last time i went to sentosa, the last time i did something that i like. if i can't find anyone to accompany me. i rather be alone. being in a relationship doesn't mean that all their time belongs to you. it doesnt mean that you dont have to ask them out. it only means that you get to jump queue. of course, that also depends on whether that person wants to allow you to cut queue and put you as priority. if that person dont think that you are important, then too bad. and even if you are considered as important, it also doesn't mean you are first in their hearts.

what happen to the 'jioing' part? when you just find any excuse to meet that person. when you just want to watch a scary movie so that you can 'protect' that girl. or go swimming and see them in their swim suit. or go skating and try to save that girl when she falls. or even just to study so you get to see her the whole day. so what happens when another guy wants to ask her out and she says no just because she put her guy as priority and her guy last minute tell her that he going out with other people? in then end, the girl always home alone because she cared too much. and the guy is out there having the time of his life, forgetting about the girl he once put in effort for.

~ you're everything I need
ok, i don't want to give in more than what i've receive. maybe its time for you to do something to prove how important i am. or maybe its me that should lower my expectations of you. either way, i still have to stop doing so much before i'm taken for granted.

~ you're everything I need
i tried and still trying to do things without expecting for anything.

~ you're everything I need
lucky our 8 monthsary falls on a weekend. if not i cannot knock off at 5.30 i also sian. i think the present that i want is a little hard to get. not something you will buy also. a sneak preview for you. the rest i will update when i give you your present.


























i know you see liao will secretly love, not like all the photos. (:

anyway, yesterday bf stayover and had weird dream again. this time is about us going to bugis street and stepping into a shoe shop with narrow entrance but the inside of the shop quite big. but the shoes quite ugly. then we both sat in the middle where there was a big table and my bf order orh jian for us to eat. then made friends with the auntie and uncle there. somehow in that dream my bf got gambling debt then he wants to break up twice because he didn't want to affect me. after that i can't remember.

~ you're everything I need