Monday, October 19, 2009 10/19/2009 12:27:00 AM
i tried being strong, a girl that will never be affect by these silly things. i tried telling myself that this is nothing, that i have to look on the bright side. but i'm afraid i can't. because i trust you to much, yet you hurt me once and again. i knew i was never a girl who could be strong, that's why i rely on you, too much. once again, its because i trust you. i tried using work and games and all sorts of distraction to not think about it. yet in the middle of being busy, deep down i still think about it. i trust you everything, tell you all my feelings and little thoughts, i never expect you to do the same. but of course it would be nice if you would tell me how you feeling once in a while. i hate being the outsider of your life. standing outside seeing you have all the fun without me. i asked myself, who am i to you, i never got the answer. i know you have your own life, but somehow, every page of your story never seem to have my name inside. i tried all ways to get in, but i always fail. i'm never a girl who gives up, but now, seeing the way you treat her, the way your eyes look at her, the way you talk to her. i don't know what to do. i'm still the same stubborn girl that doesn't want to give up. so maybe you should tell me what to do. because i still wanna try.
after being emo and saying everything out, it feels even worse now that reality is chasing up to me and i'm just trying to avoid reality.
~ you're everything I need 
Doodle